Nothing in life that’s worth it is easy. Now this may not always be true but in most cases it tends to be. The normal things like school, work, and just life in general are just not easy, unless you’re a genius. This past weekend I went home for Valentine’s Day. Huck and I had plans, nothing special just pizza and a movie at one of our houses but I was really looking forward to it. As we all know, Virginia weather doesn’t know what it’s doing…ever. It’s 50 degrees one day and blizzards that night with little to no warning. So, unfortunately we had to leave Richmond a day early and go back to school. It wasn’t easy (I’m not a fan of unexpected change) but once we got here our plans still kind of happened and it was worth it.
While I was home for the weekend I went to visit my grandmother with my mom. The last few months have been full of change with her, as she’s been moved around to different facilities within her nursing home to better accommodate her needs. Over the last few years I’ve seen my granny age, for a while I thought she never would. I had the thought that she was 74 for like 10 years up until recently. My mom and her siblings take care of what needs to be done or whatever my granny needs. I visit with her when I can, which is not as often as it should be. She is losing her memory with age, unable to walk as well and other things that make things just different enough to be hard. My mom has asked me the last few times we’ve left her room, “it isn’t easy is it?” Every time I just say, “No, it isn’t.” is it worth it to go see her? Absolutely. Is it hard? Absolutely.
School is just a whole different story. As soon as I think my classes are getting easy something happens. When I think I’m finally done being home sick, something happens and I want to go home. It’s never easy and when it is that just means something is going to happen to make it hard. It kind of goes hand in hand with “nothing in life is free.” People will argue that there are in fact free things but most likely you’ve had to do something in order to obtain the free thing.
Things are hard right now. Being a 20 year old girl, in college, 3 hours away from home and some friends, 25 minutes away from 2 extremely busy friends, living with 3 girls and really not knowing how your dream job is actually going to happen is HARD. For anyone who says this time in life is easy, stop lying to yourself. Not just for you but for everyone else around you. We need each other to get through the hard times and you aren’t fooling anyone acting like everything is so ~easy~. Most of us at this point in time are going to school, possibly also working, doing an internship or looking for one, applying for grad school, masters, jobs, programs, etc., family changes, becoming an actual adult and many other various things that we just associate with life. Right now most of this stuff seems pointless, you want to cry, scream, give up or blame other people for these day to day hard things.
My boyfriend is a realist. I didn’t believe him for a while, I thought he was truly just negative about a lot but when I actually thought about the things going on around me, I realized he was right. I’m happier now. Knowing that not everything is easy, things get hard, life throws snow at you (I really hate snow now), and meltdowns will happen. Get up, don’t look it as failures, get through the hard shit (excuse my language) and look back the next day, week, month, or year from now and be able to say “it was worth it.”
“People can do more than they ever believe they can do. Physically, mentally, academically. You have to be pushed. It hurts. But it’s worth it, and it’s a great thing.” Sugar Ray Leonard
“Golf is the closest game to the game we call life. You get bad breaks from good shots; you get good breaks from bad shots – but you have to play the ball where it lies.”